EVERYDAY?

Recent events in Texas led me to reach out my military ex to ensure he was okay. We've become more friendly since this summer but still I keep communication limited to about once a month because after our break-up other than lots of mean and sarcastic things, I haven't found myself with much to say to him.

But, the night before a tragic event at his base, I followed through on the urge to email him and let him know my feelings about how and why I handled our breakup. I was polite but firm and essentially said that I was working on becoming his friend again.

The next day, my mom told me tragedy happened so I sent him a text to make sure he was okay. Now he's been texting or calling everyday since and I'm just a tad annoyed.

I'm not one to sweep anything under the rug and pretend that there isn't a small, but present, chip on my shoulder over the way he handled things. He's facing another deployment to Iraq in the spring --the thing that brought us together the last time.

But this time, I'm firm on my position of only remaining friends with him. For some reason, while he's never cheated on me or done anything that would be deemed unforgivable I can't allow myself to let him back into my life and give as much as I have in the past.

In recent weeks, I've been the go-to-go girl for two of my exes dealing with crises and I realized that's what they expect from me. My role has always been to be the supportive, caring and over-accommodating girlfriend/friend who gives everything without demanding anything in return.

The problem for them is, now that I've read this awesome book on Biblical boundaries, I know that I should get reciprocal love and I won't settle for anything else.

So what I would have considered cute and a sign that he was back into me a year ago, I now know is his selfishness to cultivate a relationship only when he's ready for one and I don't think I have the time to devote to it.

It may sound cold, but as Lady Antebellum said "Love Don't Live Here Anymore."