The trouble with friends

People always say its great to date your friends because you know them well so when things go bad you always have the friendship. The trouble with that is when things get romantic sometimes the thought of things not going well will keep you from enjoying the moment and discovering what could be great. At least that's what happened to me this weekend. I was in the presence of a really amazing guy and there were sparks but when we had to make the decision of what to do, we opted for the friendship. Part of me says it may have been too early. That there were still things I need(ed) to learn-some of which he revealed- for a while before I make a proper decision. But there's that other part of me that wonders about what could have been. And wonders if I've broken my promise to myself about not settling or leaving opportunities on the table. And that is perhaps the most troubling factor. Because I feel he's a good guy - an awesome guy in fact- with a lot of the qualities I admire. Not at all perfect, not exactly what I'd choose for myself if I had to name everything I wanted BUT someone who makes me smile, who I can talk to and spend time with for hours on end and who has the most amazing smile and dimples. In the few months I've known him, I've seen his dedication, drive and loyalty to other friends. I also saw how sweet and charming he can be. As well a riotous. That's he's sensitive and has a romantic side. Adventurous and has very similar personality traits- shoot during both meals we ate together, we ordered the same thing! I don't think there's enough time to analyze someone's personality and whether you should go with it in the moment but if I had the moment again, man would I change some things. I hope I get a second chance.