To You...

A letter to you. You know who you are. Dear You, I didn't get a chance to say everything I wanted to say this weekend and since I'm getting on a plane, I have a habit of needing to express myself in case I never get the moment to do so ever again.

 1. I like you. You're the first guy I've been able to stomach since my boyfriend. And by stomach I mean, I actually look forward to talking to you. I can endure texting you and I look forward to every time I get to see you in person. I also don't try to figure you out too soon. I like it when you share things about your life that I could google but I'd rather get to know you personally.

 2. Kids don't scare me. Thanks for sharing what you did. I've been there before and I understand the patience required to navigate this situation so I wouldn't attempt to rush or barge my way into anything.

 3. My favorite movie is You've Got Mail. So I'm as big of a softee as you. But I have to admit that U.S. Marshalls is also in my top two so I am slightly hard core.

 4. I would love to sit and watch movies with you all day. I could see us passing time in that way with all the movies you and I both feel the other should see. Don't be surprised if other movies are in our future.

 5. Maybe we were moving too fast at a point and that we needed to slow down. And maybe once we did, we went too slow that we actually lost some ground. Whatever it is, I hope to continue forward which leads me to:

 6. I want us to do the adventures we mentioned. I would love for you to teach me something new and then for us to learn how to do something together. I need adventures in my life and I want someone to share that experience to someone. I also want that person to be you.

 7. I was nervous. You brought some high stakes with the pool atmosphere, your workout regimen... I like you. I can't quiet all the self-doubt in my head so some of the things that would be good to say are left unsaid and the things I do say, you may take the wrong way. This is something I'd like to work on. Just like you, I've relied on my writing abilities to help me explain my feelings but I don't want it to be a too little, too late type thing.

 8. I don't want you to think I'm only into you because of your past. Which is probably why I even offered to pay half of the bill. It wasn't me dismissing our date, it was me letting you know that I don't want to take advantage of you. And if I appear too independent for you, tell me! There's nothing I want more than to have someone to support who would also support me.

 9. Thank you for letting me order my healthy food. I know I may have seem rigid sticking to my meal plan but honestly you and I ordered the same thing for both meals. I can't believe you share my affinity for Frosted Flakes!! I will say even though I didn't indulge in the dessert, you did get me to try something new - the berries. I've never eaten them before but you were so sweet to feed them to me, I couldn't resist. I see that as a metaphor for the future. That you could just show me a different side of life that I haven't tried because no one else has treaded that water first and thus my life lacks until you show how much more fulfilling it can be.

 10. I hope I get to say this in person sometime. I'm giving you space now and I hope that when I return I will have some kind of message from you. I hope that you will come spend time with me in my new place of residence when you get back from out of the country and that I can come visit you in your winter residence. 

Xs and Os,
Me