It's been a while

To say the least. And really, that's the least I can say these days. Actually, that isn't true. When it comes to the part of my life I used to share openly on this blog I've become relatively mute. A clam. I don't give. It's as if I'm playing poker with the rest of the world and I'm the only one who knows someone forgot to take out the jokers when they dealt the cards so I'm really in the game with a losing hand. If that sounds pessimistic, I hate to disappoint you even further by saying that actually sounded poetic and optimistic to me. See, at least by me bluffing, I'm trying to wait out the rest of the people at the table and see how long it takes before they fold. And maybe, just maybe I can be the last person standing even when dealt the crappiest hand at the table. In fact, I feel that's what happened these last 21 months. I had a promising outlook and then it all went down the crapper. But, I'm still here, I made it through the times I didn't think it would even possible to keep forging ahead and best of all, I accomplished everything I originally set out to do. Guess that Joker card isn't the only one with the sinister grin.