En Vogue

R&B/Pop quartet En Vogue had a song called "love" during which they kept posing the question "Love, Love, what is it? What is it?" I wonder if they ever found the answer. I have been reading a lot of books about Christian love and how we should love each other. Ironically, one of those books is what spurred my current state of affairs (or lack there of I should say)... After reading those books I know what I should do and how I should act in Christian love but I find that one of two things happen: 1) when I do encounter someone who needs the loving touch I still let my natural man take over and thus I probably bruise this person more than i should. 2) I find myself waiting for the one person I believe I should be giving this love to when really I miss the opportunity to dish it out to other souls who need it more. Well, isn't that just sad. And yet, because I don't have anyone to call me on it (other than the man upstairs who knows my thoughts better than I) I just sit and read and pray that one day I'll get it together. I feel that sometimes I'm doing the same thing that I learned years ago when working in sports: fake it until you make it. Don't feel like being loving? Fake it. Give to people who you think need it. Give because you've heard that will help spur it. Give love and act like you don't care if you give it back. Although I know that's not entirely true. I mean its only because of love that a man died on a cross for me. There has to be a reason my life is tied to love. Has to be.