Case of the Ex

Mya had a great song that pretty much sums up what I'm dealing with con Valentine at the moment. The song asks the man what is he going to do or how will he react when his ex-girlfriend begins to reveal that she still has feelings for him.

In my case, I'd already hinted to Valentine that this would happen and asked him how he would handle it. Naively, he shrugged off my questions but now the time has come for action.

The sad part is it is messing with my visit to his church. He and I attend church of different denominations so our worship experiences are totally different. He liked what he saw at my church last week and I really wanted to return the favor by attending his church, especially since the people I've met at different functions have asked him when I will visit.

It's just how I was raised. Someone does something for you, you do it back to show your appreciation.

So today my plans for this Sunday fell through and I told him I'd bump up my visit to his church by a week if that worked for him. Initially he was excited but then when he and I discussed everything that transpired between him and his ex-girlfriend over the last week he admitted he didn't think it was a good idea.

Now, I'll admit selfishly I wanted to attend on Sunday just to make a point. As I told him- I don't start anything so I have no reason not to come PLUS he invited me. But after we hung up, I decided that if he doesn't have a good feeling about it, I shouldn't intentionally walk into a situation that will knowingly cause drama for him. Especially since I do have these feelings for him deep down inside.

I sent him a text telling him that we should pray on it and decide what to do later this week so now I'm just waiting to hear from the Lord on what to do. Sigh, who thought going to church would cause so much drama??