You never know a good thing...

until you have it actually. It doesn't have to be gone. Sometimes you can enjoy the moment. That's how I feel about Pro.  When he came to visit in September, I LOVED how it felt to come home and have him waiting there and have him all to myself. And to just have someone who gets me and that I can be myself with and him me and that we didn't want to rush anything.

How much did I enjoy it? Well, I snapped this picture of our shoes next to each other at the front door. I was like, I could get used to seeing another pair of shoes around this place.

And even though he had to leave, he did leave me with these:

and I tried to keep them alive as long as possible.  But even though the flowers died and his shoes are gone. Truth is Pro is still with me in my heart. I just wish I had him more often in the physical. I had the chance to see him last week and I built up all my confidence and told him (in a letter) how I felt. I'm still waiting to hear how he feels. I want and hope for the best. So far he's said nothing but how attracted he is to me but that does not a relationship make. C'mon Pro. I'm rooting for you in so many ways...