October, check. November, check, check.

Even though I said I wouldn't worry about the whole once a month dating, I somehow managed to achieve it. In fact, no sooner did I email my partner in crime to tell her I'd given up, then a good friend called to take me out when I was in Baltimore. Does it say something about me that I am only dating people who aren't living in the city I actually live in??

Any how. I managed to go on two dates last weekend while I was in town. i don't count my encounter with Pro on the plane e/t it did end with my confessing how I felt about him... but that was an earlier post.

Here's what I've realized.  One of my suitors has morphed into a great guy. Our conversation on Friday was less about hanging out with famous people and doing extremely expensive things and more about what he's looking for in life. When we first reconnected, I'd told him that I was going through a soul-searching phase so he started our time together by asking me what I'd learned. What I learned that I don't think I ever knew was just how he started with nothing and that's why he can only think about business. He's an excellent business man and his success so far has given him the ability to live a lifestyle that is luxurious and still go after what he wants. I looked at some superficial things like that he has certainly put on pounds since we first met but then again so have I so i can't point fingers. All in all, I think he's looking for something substantive. Someone who likes him for him and not what he can do and that he feels is a quality mate.  I like how he's always been willing to be there for me if I let him. I like that he can teach me things and that now he seems to respect my opinion and experiences. We bond over things that I haven't found a connection with  with other men but I don't know how long those little things can be sustained.

And then there's Goliath. We met up Saturday night and we had a usual good time. He seemed genuinely excited to see me and really made himself available at a time that was convenient to me. He's said he is thinking of coming out to visit me here BUT he is thinking of doing so next year. The thing with him is that he is such a gentleman, I don't know that he has ever been "interested." It felt as if his hugs were more of the attracted than protective this time, they certainly lasted longer, but I can't be sure that I should read anything else into it.

Truth is, if I could have what I want. I want Pro. I feel there's a reason why all this other stuff didn't work. And this week I wondered if my times with them this weekend was a way to put the past behind me. Especially after my weekend in Baltimore. I went out with my favorite hometown cutie and yet, I was more so excited to see how much of a man he'd become.  He's handsome and driven and has a good heart and that is what made him attractive. I thought about how Steve Harvey says you should ask a man his short-term and long-term plans and I didn't even have to ask him, since he volunteered the info. He said we should keep in touch but I haven't heard from him since last week. I've put him in the "give time, time" portion of my life. But more than anything, I'm so proud of the man he's become and still strives to be.

So, am I going to put all these dudes in the past? Or should I keep them around until December? I have a friend getting married in SD on Dec. 28. She's holding a plus one for me just in case Pro comes around. I can think of great scenario where he does come but I'm not going to put a damper on how that weekend can turn out -especially since I have an amazing hotel booked for that night!!