Roster

Surprisingly, I feel as though I have a roster of options to keep my dating attention span occupied.  I am happy to say that I do have one friend whom I wouldn't dare venture to put into any kind of spot, and I enjoy that because he is able to look out for me and we can have fun without any premeditated behavior between us.

It seems I've still left a few people behind in Houston. One of which is so full of it I can't even begin to give him more than an eye roll when I get texts from him. But there are others who are sweet, caring and seem geniune, but don't make the effort to pursue more.

And then there's pro. Who infuriates me at times and makes me question what kind of person he is at the end of the day.  At times I find myself saying "c'mon don't be THAT guy" which is how I know that things wouldn't always be rosy.  But given what I've learned about him in so little time and the amount of time we've spent together, I do hope I'll get to see him next month. I'm actually dreading the event I have to attend if I don't get to see him because that means I have to face my ex alone...

But I don't think that's a good enough reason to want to see someone plus I don't know that I want to put him in an awkward position. I just know if it came down to it however, he would protect me and I'd come off as the person who moved on and did better.

I guess that's the thing about exes- no matter how much you may want them to do well, you don't want them to move on before you do. I flaunted The Graduate in front of Piracy last year and now look where I am... I'm not going to our reunion this weekend so even if he does have a gf to flaunt, I don't have the pleasure of seeing it.  I'll try not to fret over this for the next two weeks. After all, I've found usually everything I think about lately never really comes to fruition.

And in the meantime, I'll keep everyone on the bench and take myself to the comedy show tomorrow. Self-date night!!