Insecurities, check

Have you ever been out with a guy and you had no clue why they were interested in you? And as a result that makes all your insecurities kick in. And sometimes even if you aren't completely interested, you find yourself waiting it out just to see what will happen because they show so much interest?

Well, that's how I feel about a certain guy from my past. I realized that when we last connected I was so internally screwed up from the graduate that I didn't appreciate all he was willing to do for me.  And so I let time pass by without a returned phone call and so did he. But, upon realizing this I decided a few weeks ago to send him an e-mail to apologize for taking him for granted.

Little did I know that he'd respond so favorably. I was shocked that he exchanged pleasantries and seemed genuinely concerned about my well-being. So imagine how after a few weeks of exchanged e-mails today he decided to take a chance and give me a call.

All I can think about his how my male friend who once saw the two of us together (when I was with the graduate) immediately picked up on how into me he was. It was something I didn't realize until he said something.

I have no idea what could come of our renewed communication given that he is in Houston now and I'm in LA, but, I do find myself hoping that since he knows I'll be home in two weeks, I will get an invite to hang out or go for another chopstick lesson.