Moving to more

Pro and I are starting to move to that risky and slim space where we are more than friends but not yet the g and b words... It's exciting but more noticeably for me, exhausting.The reason being is that to get to this point, we both have to sacrifice time to talk.  He does so in the afternoon/night when he could be hanging out at dinner with his friends on the trip and I do so when i should be asleep and getting rest for work.

But it's fun to sit and talk to him on face time and see his adorable smile.  No matter what he says when he smiles I sadly melt and forgive all. I'm enjoying the time we have together. I'm doing things I've never done before. Some of them are comfortable, some not but at the same time, I'm requiring him to get out of his comfort zone as well.

Part of it stems from the Fifty Shades books which he told me if I read them, he'd tell me more about him. I'm not sure that I've gotten to his core but little by little I'm learning more about what makes him, him. And I'm comforted by the way he approaches his finances- making sure to pay his bills before leaving but also being frugal about his lifestyle when he's away. I can relate to that and it makes me feel better about my discomfort over the lifestyle that Miami-bred guy I used to date wanted to live.

I want to see what else develops without my nagging or putting pressure to make us be something we're not. He asks me quite often what the next step is for me and I don't have a good answer for him. I want to know the reason behind his questioning but I don't ask.  Maybe if he asks again, I will. My goal is to be less pre-meditated with him and go with the flow as much as possible. I like how he gets me to try to new things and I shared it with him. My one hope moving forward is that he tells me more about how he feels about me. I suspect there's something to his silence on the subject that comes from his past, but I will wait patiently to find out.