The only downside

The only negative aspect about TT2 is that he reminds me a LOT of my ex. And I mean A LOT!!!

They both have the same ethnic background and actually look a little similar in terms of build. Granted TT2 smiles a lot more and seems to have better people skills, but there are just some things you can't overlook that are eerily familiar.

The whole thing makes me question whether I'd even be interested in going out with him or even more realistic, if I had a chance... And while that almost sounds silly, I know it's a big ego thing but I just wish I had a realistic chance with everyone to whom I'm attracted.

Because of seeing TT2 almost everyday I've also begun to miss the ex a lot more. Now, we still have a good friendship and we do long-distance friendship well but whenever we get together it's like the force of attraction between us is so strong, it's really hard to resist and then we have to spend months repairing our friendship and getting over the hurt we caused each other all over again.

Further solidifying my downfall is that I've agreed to meet him for dinner tomorrow. We'll see if yet another Thursday date falls through. I told him if he cancelled on me I'd be very upset. He said he wouldn't. I say: we'll see... Lord, please, please help!!