A few years ago I read a book called "Table for One. The Savvy Girl's Guide to Being Single."
I found the book during one of my random trips to the Christian bookstore. What I read has stuck with me to this day.
Recently my best friend was blessed with leave from Iraq to come home for Thanksgiving and to see his niece graduate.
For the first time in three years, I made the journey home for the holiday because he would be home. But it wasn't for the reason everyone thought-yes, I was coming to see him, but for the first time in several years there was no underlying thought that maybe THIS time he would be ready to start something.
It took me eight years to finally get over him, but now that I have, my life has become more about me doing the things I want to do and not waiting on someone with whom I could finally experience those things.
It didn't become more evident to me until this year when I truly begin to make decisions based on what made me happy and going the places I've always wanted to visit.
Finally making it to Tucson, AZ I felt an unwary sense of accomplishment. True, it wasn't the city I thought I'd always like to live in-Phoenix-but it was Arizona and it was beautiful.
Whenever I travel anywhere I think about the John Mayer song "3X5." The lyrics say:
Let me say you should have seen that sunrise
With your own eyes
It brought me back to life
You'll be with me next time
I go outside
No more 3X5s.
Sunday as I drove around Tucson and watched the sun set, I was in the reality of the song. I couldn't take a picture (not only because I was driving) but also because it was something I had to experience for myself.
Funny enough, tonight he asked me if I took any pictures and I told him no.
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